This year I’ve transformed through so many situations that I continue to surprise myself in how I think and react to things. Sometimes I find myself getting worked up over situations I wouldn’t have sweat 6 months ago. Constantly comparing myself to people I don’t even like. Jealousy is one big thing that defines who I like and dislike. Im slowing beginning to realize how pathetic that is. In the past, I was happy with who I was and I think the person I was 6 months ago would be disappointed in the person that I have been acting like. Physically I’ve matured along with emotionally and mentally. Im begginging to find one specific style that defines who I am and what I believe in. I’ve found a group of friends who love me for me and vice versa. Of course a few of those friends here and there, have slipped out of reach and sure, It hurts, it hurts a lot, but the progress I’ve made in living through the phrase ” everything happens for a reason” has helped me cope with the pain. Corny as it comes across, music has had a huge impact on me and how I feel. The angry music has slowly faded and I’ve been feeling a little better. Listening to the melodies and interpreting the hell out of the lyrics to try and find one person that maybe knows whats on my mind. Im done with being angry at people I’ve never met, along with ones that my heart is most familiar with. I’m happy with my hair color and my skin tone; my style, morals, values. My reactions and my thoughts. Friends, parents, experiences, my boyfriend…I’m done comparing myself to girls who feel the exact same way I do, I’m just to stubborn and blinded by the unessesary jealousy to realize it. I’m me for reason and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
